So over due!!! September 2012 #allforthekids as always :)

So during my NYSC year after several attempts to do a project to no avail, two weeks before my service year was over, one of my projects finally gets approved and i am given 2 days to prepare and get it done. On Friday September 28th 2012 I went to Love Home Orphanage there with 9 other corpers and Mrs. Leo an NYSC administrator. Love Home Orphanage is located on 7b Jubilee Road, Magodo, Off CMD Road, Lagos. It is owned by Daystar church and run by Pasor Mrs Nike Adeyemi.


I went there with food items and toiletries. The items include; Cornflakes – 1 Carton, A bag of Rice, Spaghetti - 1 Carton, Pampers - 1 Bag (Of 8 packs), Cerelac - 4 Tins, Dano Milk – 6 Sachets, Custard - 1 Bucket, Butter- 2 Buckets, Vaseline 1 Packet (Of 10), Ribena – 4 Mini Cartons (Of 64), Indoime – 2 Cartons, Tooth Brush – 23 Packs, Tooth Paste – 2 Packs (Of 20), Tissue Paper- 48 Rolls, Washing Soap – A Bag, Garri, A bag of textbooks books. –

And most importantly we got to spend time with the little children and their caretakers as the older children were in school. We spent most of our time in the living room where class photos of the children were hung as well as medals that they had won. It was so great to see these adorable children around caretakers who clearly loved them and were taking good care of them. Although we could not take pictures with the children we took pictures of the gifts we brought and with some of the staff. I know that by the time we were leaving many of us had gotten attached to the children and did not want to leave. Overall, it was an amazing experience and it was great to remind the children they are loved, and make a difference in the community. It was my own way of giving back and I really look forward to doing more events like this. If in some small way I can help give a child like this a better life that would be a great blessing.

At the end of the day, it is not about what one has to give these children but more importantly about spending time with these kids and showing them they are loved. I am excited about the next orphanage homes I’ll be visiting and the next place I’ll be able to make a difference. Don not ever not make a difference because you can only do a little.

“We make a living by not what we get, but we make a life by what we give”- Winston Churchill.

PS: Please try and ignore the horrible looking khaki uniform lol. It's #allforthekids

As always stay believing and remember your not alone

Love always,

Daddy's lil girl (Mbang) xoxo

It's a New Year!!!

Happy New Year People!! Yes, I am aware it is the last day of Jan :)

It’s 2013 and even though currently in my life there isn’t a lot to be excited about, I am. I am excited to be alive and for the wonderful possibilities ahead. I am thankful for family and great friends that have stayed supporting and encouraging me especially when I didn’t deserve it. I am thankful to God for some of the amazing people he brought into my life in 2012 and for friendships and relationships that have blossomed.I am thankful for music, which remains a big part of my life. Helping me get through the bad times, good times, helping to build memories, and for clearing my head to make better /good decisions (Yes music does that for me ☺).

Despite what this year brings I have made a decision to be happy, remain positive and stay fighting to fulfill my dreams and passion. Striving to be the best at whatever it is I find myself doing. Yes I am a Gladiator and you to can be one #Scandalfan #Olivia Pope. Shout out to all the Scandal fans out there lol. Wishing you all an amazing and blessed year.

Always remember tribulations and problems would come but your not alone and you can make your way back from anything if you chose to.

Stay Strong, Stay Believing.

Love always,
Mbang (Daddy’s lil girl)

#allforthekids :)

I’m in the process of forming an NGO but before that is finalized I’ve decided that every other month I’ll visit an orphanage with gifts and things needed and spend some quality time with these children so that they always feel loved. So the first orphanage home we visited was in Lekki and it was on Saturday the 28th of January. Initially it was supposed to be a party and then we would also be going there with needed items but due to some last minute cancellations it just became more of a visit but we still went there with snacks to distribute. Thanks to God and some really awesome people I was able to raise 160,000 Naira to be able to buy items needed for the children. Also, a few people distributed items that I added to those I got. Below I have attached a list of items bought, amounts and the prices:


ITEMS /AMOUNT /PRICES
Ribena: 4 Packets of 27 2,400x4=96,00
Lucozade Boost: 2 Packets of 27 2,350x2 =4,700
Nan (baby food): 1 Carton of 12 7,158
Custard: 1 Carton of 4 liter (4) 3,600
Meat: A whole lot + the cutting 6,500
Closeup Toothpaste: 2 Packets of 10 1,700x 2 =3,400
Bornvita: 1 Carton of 12 7,000
Peak 123: 1 Carton 7,100
Cornflakes: 1 Carton 2,900
Air freshener: 1 Packet of 10 2,800
Disinfectant (Detol): 2 Packets of 6 4,280
Pears Baby Lotion: 3 Packets of 10 2000x3= 6,000
Pears Baby Oil: 2 Packets of 10 2,500x2=5,000
Detergent: 1 carton 3,000
Pampers: 3 Packs (Size 2, 3, 4) 1,600x3=4800
Chicken: 1 carton + the cutting 8,800
Fish: 1 Carton plus the cutting 11,000
Singlet’s (Unisex): 3 dozens of size 55, 60, 70 2000x2 + 2200 =6,200
Singlet’s (Girls only): 2 dozens and five pairs 2000+ 800=2,800
Boxers: 3 dozens of different sizes 1300+1400=2,700
Pants (Girls): 4 dozens of different sizes 350x4=1,400
Socks: 4 packs of 12 500x3 +600=2,100
Medications: 10 Coartem babies (2000), 4 Coartem Junior and Adult (2960, 4 Emzolyn expt (560), 3 Loxaprim Susp (750), 3 Primpex Susp (840), 4 Ascomed vic tab (640), 6 Em-Vit C Syrup (900), = 9,190
Transportation: cost Packing, paying those that carried the cartons and items (3 occasions) =600
Children Donation Basket: (At orohanage home) =500

Total: 123,128

Out of the 160, 000 donated, it remains about 37 that I would be adding to the funds that would be donated for our next orphanage program. Other donations received were: 2 cartons of golden morn, A packet of 100 chesse balls, 2 packet of tissue paper, 2 packets of detergent, pampers, cooking oil, peak milk, some more drinks, 2 cakes, 3 cartons of indiome, milo, cerelac, washing soap, a sack of rice and a microwave. There might be a few things I am missing but I think I have covered most of the things donated.


This orphanage is home to 100 amazing children though we were not allowed to take pictures with the children so you are going to have to take my word of how adorable they were. It was great to see caregivers that care and love these children surrounded the children. I was surprised to see quite a lot of babies there especially one that was only 7 days old. Apparently he was found abandoned and brought to the orphanage. He was so tiny and if you didn’t’ look closely it appeared as though the cot was empty. Seeing him really got me emotional but I was happy he was found because not all abandoned children live.

There were too many really cute babies and my friends and I couldn’t help carrying them and getting attached. One particular 8-month baby wouldn’t stop holding my friends hand (even though it was because of the big bling she was wearing as a watch). The babies were very pleasant gripping and smiling at us. Hardly ever crying except when dropped. And even when dropped, most did not cry. It was definitely the best weekend I’ve had and there were many times I had to fight back the tears with a smile. I found myself getting really attached asking for the names and information about how they found each child. I know I have said I would adopt and not that I wasn’t sure before but now am a 100% certain about this. If in some small way I can give a child like this a better life that would be a great blessing.

I am so grateful that so many people responded to the messages I sent about donations. I was surprised to see how many people wanted to help but didn’t know how to and I am so thankful to be able to have given them an avenue to help. To all those who in one way or another helped make these event a success, may God bless you abundantly and may he continually remember you just as you have remembered these children. At the end of the day, it is not about what one has to give these children but more importantly about spending time with these kids and showing them they are loved. Am all excited for the next orphanage home we’ll be visiting which would be on the mainland and once again i would appreciate your support.

Small actions + lots of people = Big Change!!!!! Don't ever not make a difference because you can only do a little.

Love always,
Daddy's lil girl (Mbang) xoxo

Its about time i updated my blog :)

So am officially the worst blogger cause I’m so bad at updating my blog. It’s been some good three months since I last had an update so let me get you up to speed as to what has gone on in my life.

• I went to NYSC camp in November and thank God it was in Lagos (yay!) but that didn’t make it any less filthy. It’s definitely one of those experiences that you never forget. With the soldiers saying things like “Otondo”- lazy corper, and making us sing things like “chop akara go, moin moin no dey”. It was an eventful place with some of the international students forming and meeting people you wouldn’t even believe are graduates. It was a classic experience so classic that I considered starting a blog dedicated to the adventures of NYSC. And of course it is a moneymaking industry (all my money saved was spent in camp). A hectic but fun experience and best of all, I met some really amazing people there.
• After camp I was really ill for about 2weeks. I was feeling like a hard babe and stayed in camp the whole time. But with that came consequences like the crazy combination of typhoid and malaria. I don’t ever remember having typhoid before now so it was definitely a new and not so exciting experience. Thank God for his favor I was back to a 100%. And of course thanks to the many medications I got to take.
• On the plus side, Christmas holiday was looking very promising as many of my friends and family are coming in to Nigeria. So finally there was something exciting to look forward too. Honestly speaking I had been looking forward to Christmas since September. Yes, I know it’s quite shameful but its true. Good thing Christmas lived up to all the hype but then I was broke all over again.
• In came the New Year… Yay!! We made it into 2012 ☺ Unfortunately for us in Naija that brought about the increase in petrol, strike and worst of all more bombing in Northern States. Too many innocent lives gone for absolutely no reason. Nigeria remains in my prayer and so do the families of those who lost their loved ones. One day all our issues would be in the past.

Still Happy New Year people even though a month of the new year has gone already. I'm wishing that this year is one filled with unexpected blessings and divine favor. Its definitely our year to shine and that time for things to get better. Remember your not alone so please hang in there.

Love always,
Daddy's lil girl Mbang..xoxo

Little things with great LOVE!

We make a living by not what we get, but we make a life by what we give. ~Winston Churchill


I visited the motherless baby home in lekki and its like two streets from my sisters house so we just strolled down. I was so pleased with what I saw when the gates were opened. It was a very cute set up they had for these kids. They had a couple of buildings and in the middle of those buildings a play ground. I was very happy to see that these kids were been taken care of well. Going to places like that just reminds you of how much all the ‘supposedly’ big things we complain about are not important. I’ve been sponsoring a 7 year boy old well now 9 year old in the Philippines for a year and a half and it’s the most rewarding experience I have had so far. We have written to each other a couple of times and this experience has been a life changing experience for me. I know many of us want to help but do not feel like were in a position too. “Nobody made a greater mistake than he who did nothing because he could only do a little.” Your just one and may only have a little but you can do something. Even the little things matter like your words, allowing someone keep the change and helping to increase awareness about those in-need. So today I challenge you once again do “small things with great love.” And whatever it is you may be going through always remember that you are not alone.

Love always,
Daddy's little girl (Mbang)xoxo

"No we're not lucky, we're BLESSED!!!"

Sometimes I forget to remember how blessed and fortunate I am and am trying not to do that again. This happens especially when I feel things are not going the way I want them to go or when things are not working out well. Anyways, if you can tell I haven’t blogged for a while and though from time to time I find myself scrabbling stuff on a piece of paper, or writing stuff in the memo pad on my blackberry I have been struggling to actually write a full post and put it up. It’s weird because I get inspiration to write all the time, every day; whether its from the lyrics of songs (i.e. Coldplay, Dido) talking to people, meeting new people or watching a show and a scene comes up with the right music playing it can be so personal for me. But, somehow I find a way to procrastinate blogging. I kept telling myself that I would blog when I start my NGO but seeing as that is taking longer than I hoped it would I might as well start blogging again now that I got serious inspiration.

Yesterday I went to the palms to go see a movie with a couple of friends. For those of you who don’t know what the palm is, it’s a shopping mall in Nigeria where every one well, maybe not everyone but most people are overdressed like their going to the club. Like it’s pretty intense some days most babes are in really high heels and
I always feel so under dressed lol. But yea, so my friend came with some of her other friends one of which was physically disabled. The crazy thing is that though she’s on a wheel chair she doesn’t let it upset her or stop her from doing absolutely everything. She is one of the liveliest people I have met and her out look on life is so amazing. Despite her disability, she would do everything she can possibly do herself and be pleasant about it. She does not allow this disability to limit her or define her.

Most of us have it so much easier though we are still ungrateful, depressed and limit ourselves. We do not have any physical or mental disability limiting us though we limit ourselves. We don’t need someone to take us to the bathroom just to use the toilet or, to lift us up to sit down and many little things we take for granted put yet we do not realize how blessed and lucky we are. So many people are lacking the basic things we have like food, shelter, clean water and good health but yet we seem to think we have it bad. Many people do not know where their next meal is coming from. Yes, things may be pretty bad with you but there are so many people that have it worse so even when things are pretty shitty (excuse my language) there are still many reasons for us to be grateful.

Today is also September 11 and it’s been 10 years ago since the terrorist attack occurred in New York. So many lives were lost and though it’s been ten years, families and friends of victims especially are hurting like it just happened all over again. My prayers and thoughts are with you and also to anyone out there who may have lost someone dear to them from my personal experiences it gets better, you get better. One day you wake up and it doesn’t hurt as much and even if it does you learn to deal with it. Just remember you’re not alone and though it may seem dark, lonely and difficult right now the sun will eventually come out. Things would get better. Like I always say, you can make your way back from anything and your not alone☺

PS: Special shout out to my sister Toun who just joined the blog world Yay!!. Be sure to check her out on: http://toun-anjous.blogspot.com/


Love always,
Daddy’s Little girl (Mbang)…..xoxo

Lost:(

Just before you start reading this, it was written like some six months ago (May ending) so am glad to say that I'm not in that place anymore. I'm posting this very personal note I wrote so that you can see that even when we get to our lowest points we can make our way back no matter how bad it gets. I am no longer lost though there are still a lot of things I have to figure out but I have more courage, hope, perseverance, strength, and faith than ever before.


For once in my life I am very confused without a clue of where to turn
To wake up and find that all the things you felt were familiar aren't
All the places, people and relationships you built were on lies
That you could have done anything for the people that left you in the cold
That you have been made to look like a fool by people you trusted
I lay in bed every morning hoping that yesterday was a dream but it wasn't
Now everything that was once so familiar seems strange
And though there are still people to talk to I don't want to
There are no needs for words because my feelings cannot be expressed
The pain is unbearable and though I would like to share it can only be felt
I lay in bed trying to figure out how things got this bad
I lay in bed trying to figure out where I went wrong
All the memories and good times we've shared so far away
I thought that our bond was stronger than this
I thought that we were are at a point that we could make it from anything
But, obviously I was wrong.... really, really wrong
I think what hurts the most was that you were willing to talk to anyone but me
Why is the bad stuff so easy to believe?
I get that you were trying to find yourself but you lost yourself in doing so
You left me completely questioning all my relationships.
But I know that one-day would come that I would feel no pain no more
One day would come that my heart would not be so heavy
But today like the last couple of days am still lost but this too shall pass...

And it did pass (with God, family, and great friends)...It's been only a couple of months ago and am more fearless than ever before (I think) lol!!! So, there's nothing wrong in feeling down and defeated as long as you remember you can make your way back from anything. So keep getting up, trying to be okay even if you have to fake it sometimes and one day you would be okay:)
Love always,
Daddy's lil girl (Mbang)..xoxo

Can't Stop Now......Got to keep fighting through the pain and obstacles

So I know that it's been a while since I’ve posted anything but lets just say that "Life Happened"..lol.. But, seriously this past months have been really challenging and tough for me but maybe not so difficult compared to what others go through but still difficult. There is nothing that hurts as much as betrayal and saying goodbye to someone you really do care for. Friendship, love, betrayal, heartbreak, disappointments well lets just say that I have my own share of them all but I am glad to say I made it through even though there were moments that I thought this was my breaking point. I never stopped writing but many of the things I wrote was at a point when I wasn't in a good place so I decided not to post any of those until I was doing much better. So much has changed since I wrote my last blog in April. I graduated from UMBC so I have my bachelor’s degree, I have taken the Lsat exam and there are many people that meant a lot to me that are no longer in my life. It has always been said that the most constant thing in life is change so I do not think all this should be all too surprising. Sometimes words cannot express how one is feeling but, lets just say that I have been going through some difficult times I’ve learned so much and am still learning from the last couple of months. These were some of the things I had to keep telling myself to get through it all...

You cannot let life change you, you cannot let life break you, and you have to try to keep moving forward no matter what. Just because its dark and rainy now doesn't mean the sun wouldn't come out eventually. You cannot stop believing your unstoppable and anyone that doesn't think so does not deserve to be in your life. Don't you ever let this world change you because it almost happened to me and it does not take much to allow that. If your going to do good do it without expectations do it for God. Do not be afraid to invest into relationships because you have been hurt or disappointed before because at the end of the day it would be your lose. Take your time to know someone and be sure your investing into the right people but the truth is at the end of the day you can never really know because people can be who you want them to be so just be careful but its worth the risk. But, do not let others suffer or pay for the pain and hurt others have brought to you. No one is perfect so if you do make a mistake, learn from it, re-evaluate yourself and move on. There is always room for individual growth and the ability for you to better yourself so do some self-reflecting when necessary. If you've wronged someone apologizing doesn't mean you lose your pride it just shows that your mature enough to handle things properly. Even if they do not forgive you at least you know that you tried and that you meant it. And if someone wrongs you I know forgiving them can be so hard especially when they never apologize or they keep doing more wrong things but forgiving people is for your good. So many times we have to let go in order to move forward and we cannot be asking God to bless us while we have so much bitterness and anger in our hearts so you see it can hinder our blessings. Despite how ugly and wicked the hearts of men may seem there are still good people out there who stand by you no matter what especially when the going is rough and hard. So many times, you would be surprised that those you may expect to be there aren't and those that aren't your closet of friends may be the ones there for you... One good thing the tough times does is allow you to know who your true friends are and those you can depend on. And if you make it through those times, you come out stronger than ever before... And never ever forget that you are not the only one who is struggling because a lot of people are, all you can do is keep trying. I've always believed that things/people/lyrics/words/music/stuff finds you when you need it the most so just keep holding on. Just like the song by REM says "Everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes so hold on".For those of you that love it or do not know that song: http://youtu.be/ijZRCIrTgQc
Love always,
Daddy's litte girl(Mbang)...xoxo

Love Should Be Enough.......

I have always been one of those people that thought love was enough and should be able to get you through anything but is it really? I always felt that if you loved someone and they loved you back then you should be able to work through anything but apparently it is not that simple. I just watched Dear John today and it left me thinking the same way the Notebook got me thinking... Is there really a love like that? Or is it just in movies that such an unconditional love exists. You know the kind of love that keeps growing each day and continues to get deeper and stronger. The kind of love that forgives easily and loves during the good and especially the bad. A deep connection that keeps two as one forever. The truth is that I do not know if such a love exists in reality.

In reality, I see a love that is ready to give up so easily when there is a storm. I see a love that can hardly make it through the stormy days. I do not think people really know what it means to be in love and to truly love someone. Everyone is so quick to say those three words to anyone without even fully understanding what they mean and what comes with saying them. The truth is that when you really do love someone you never stop loving them. You may stop being in love with them but whether you like it or not no matter what they do to you would always love them. It's almost as though a small piece of them becomes a part of you forever. I was once told to fall for someone who is willing to catch me but that would be easier done if one could choose who they fall for. I wish love could be enough and two people loving themselves be enough but it is not always so.... :(
Love always and 4eva,
Daddy's little girl (Mbang)..xoxo

Life is so much more than........

Life is much more than whose driving the latest car or who has dated the hottest girl
Life is much more than wearing designer clothes or chilling with the cool kids
Life is much more than going clubbing, partying and getting wasted every now and then
Life is much more than trying to please everyone so that you can fit in
Life is much more than been successful and wealthy
Life is much more than bragging to your boys all the girls you've smashed (word of advice that's immature and lame and it says a lot about the kind of person you are).


Don't get me wrong; having some of these things in your life makes life pretty easier but none of the wealth or fame matters if you don't have anyone to share it with.
None of these matters if you don't have God in your life.
None of these matters if you cannot give back to those that lack.
None of these matters if you cannot be true to those close to you but especially yourself.
None of these matters if you cannot be strong enough to think for yourself (No one likes a follow-follow it's really not attractive).
None of these matters if your to scared to let others in because of the fear of getting hurt because at the end of the day you are going to be the one missing out. Always remember that you are not alone. Everyone is going through something so hang in there.
Love always,
Daddy's little girl (Mbang)…xoxo

Why do you limit yourself?

I see you trying to open up but still you don't
I see you trying to express yourself to me but still you don't
I see the real you and it's beautiful but still you chose to be less
I see how vulnerable you are even though you act other wise
I see someone that is scared of getting hurt because of past experiences
I see someone that has the potential to be great and has just began to go places
I see someone that has overcome so many obstacles in life
I see someone who can do anything as long as your mind is set
I see someone that i would forever want to be in my life
I see someone that can change the world
I see someone filled with so much courage and drive
I see someone that has an unconditional love for family
I see someone that is scared to let go completely
I see someone that had to be strong at a young age and now doesn't know how to let go
I see someone that has been disappointed too many times and is now afraid of letting people in
I see someone that makes me want to be a better person
I see someone that has a big heart but,


You see someone that is lost and confused
You see someone that has failed or is failing
You see someone your not proud of
You see someone that used to have a big heart
You see someone that wanted to change the world
You see someone that is struggling
You see someone that does not know where they are going
You see someone that is not a good person
You see someone that is like everyone else
You see someone that is a burden to others


It's okay to be scared but when fear starts to stand in your way of been truly happy then there's a problem. If your someone that is always going to be sitting around waiting for happiness then it would never come to you have to chose to be happy. Yes most times life experiences show that caring and loving only allows for a person to be hurt, disappointed and betrayed I feel that not caring or the inability to express one's feeling because of fear of rejection or pride is a much bigger loss and disappointment. If you do not think that you are the person you are meant to be then do something about it. The only one that can stand in your way is you and I think the moment you realize that a lot is going to change for you. Never stop believing in your self because whenever the real you comes its simply beautiful. Hopefully you get to see this and start thinking differently because if your saw yourself through my eyes then you would know that are truly a unique and blessed person.


Dedicated to all those out there who think less of themselves without realizing how great they are. Keep believing in yourself just like I believe in you. Always remember that you are not alone... :)
Love always,
Daddy's little girl (Mbang)...xoxo

Its been two years.. So i guess i just had to

Well, I cannot believe that it has already been two years since I started my blog because it still feels like it was only yesterday. I know that I have not stayed as dedicated to blogging as I should so, maybe that's why two years seems like such a long time. Today was my dad's 60th birthday and besides the fact that I miss him so much I felt at peace with myself. Yes in class and at my apartment I drift away in thought every now and then but like I said I was at peace. Every now and then, I couldn't help but wonder if he would be proud of the young woman his little girl was coming.

For a very long time now, I have been wanting to sponsor a child but considering I am always broke I have not yet set out to do so. Just two weeks ago i was watching a random channel that i never watch on TV and just when i was about to switch off my TV and go to bed, an advertisement came on about an international non-profit organization that caters to the needs of under privileged children. Considering that I never watch that station I could not help but think that the advertisement was for me so I took down the number so that I could call them when I was more stable financially. I have been giving it a lot of thought and today i finally called them and I am proud and happy to say that i am now sponsoring a little boy in the Philippines. Yes i am always broke and do not have any regular income coming in monthly but I don't care because I am going to sponsor this little boy that needs me for as long as long can be. If I had my way I would sponsor more than one child but unfortunately am not yet at that point in my life to do so and if I did that I may just be the one that needs sponsoring eventually..lol. I know this is random and all but I have been giving much thought to adopting a child I mean not now but eventually.. I mean why not?.. I would be privileged to give a needy child a place to call home. Everyone deserves a shot at being happy and living a fairly comfortable life.

I knew that this day was gonna be memorable but i under-estimated how special it was gonna be for me. I know that a lot of people want to help but only have little to give so do not. The truth is that if you keep waiting for the right time you are going to be waiting forever so sometimes you just have to let go of all your worries, concern and fears and just make it happen. I know it is not easy but most times the most difficult things to do are the experiences that change our lives and make us stronger people. I have faith in you so today i challenge you to start from somewhere. Nothing is too small even if its just words of encouragement. Remember YOU ARE NOT ALONE...
Love always,
Daddy's Little Girl (Mbang)....xoxo

Do bad things really happen to good people?

This is one of those topics that there really is no right or wrong answer so basically, I am just going to say what my opinions are about this philosophy. Growing up I saw that my uncles and auntie’s that were some of the nicest people either passed away or had major problems. I am an optimist and have always believed that things do not stay the same for long but some experiences in my life and other peoples lives close to me have proved me wrongness have been people I know that have been battling with the same problem since I have known them and it's still there. In fact, many of the people I know going through a lot of issues are really good people so why is this so?

Now, that is a question that cannot be answered because that's life. Many people when they start to encounter problems and challenges there are two things that can happen to them. It's either they come out stronger as a survivor or they give in to their situation such in a way that it breaks them. If there is one thing I have learned from life is that everyone has problems. Yes, these problems vary in the amount but everyone has their share of issues. I know it may look like some people do not have any problems but remember, "Things are not always the way they seem." It is true that life does suck sometimes in fact for some most times but its no excuse for not rising above your problems because whenever you think your problems are bad there is always someone going through much worse and somehow they are coping so you can find the strength to do so as well.

I used to say that December was not my month and because I strongly believed this it became true. Every time December came I was always dealing with some serious issues but I met someone that saw so much in me and somehow that person made me realize that I am stronger and better than I give my self-credit. From that day I decided that I was no longer going to label December as my SUPER BAD MONTH and I tell you this past December was different. Yes I still had a lot that I was dealing with in some ways more than I have had to deal with every other December but I chose to be happy through it all. Slowly, the good started happening and even though many of my problems still remained I had a lot to be thankful for so i was at peace. And with time my problems seemed so far away. True happiness lies within and yes its true you need to be comfortable financially enough to be happy but at the same time, when it comes down to it all those things do not matter. What matters is the people you have in your life. Trust me they can make all the difference in the world. So yes, the truth is that bad things do happen to good people and yes despite what you may be going through, you can make your way back from anything. Just remember that YOU ARE NOT ALONE or the first one to experience such problems and that there are people out there going through similar and worse issues. Nothing ever remains the same so just hang in there because there is always a light at the end of the tunnel..

Love always, Daddy's little Girl (Mbang)xoxo

Can naija boys pick up lines get any worse??....

Don't get me wrong I totally love Naija as in GIDI for life but for real naija guys have the worst pick up lines in the world and the funniest thing about this is that they actually do work for some girls. If you r not aware Hi5 is the number one place to be stalked or to meet RAZZ peeps (and no this razz am using is not the cool razz). All you have to do is put up pictures and you have all sorts of people sending you messages that they can't get you off their minds. And even if you do not have pictures up people still send you messages that "you are the woman in my dreams". I mean how can someone you have not seen before or have no idea of what they look like or behave be in your dream? Is it me or is that totally crazy and unacceptable.

A while back I got a message from a random naija dude that said "my dad must have been a terrorist because I am a sex bomb".. I almost died of laughter, one thing for sure he definitely got my attention but I highly doubt it was the kind of attention he wanted from me. A naija guy told my friend that he “loves her like the vibration of the sea." How does the sea come into play? This other time, a dude came up to me and said "your an angel and I know am the devil but baby don't rebuke me" But WHY?? It almost like they enroll naija guys at a young age in a school that teaches them "LINES TO GET BABES" It should not be so hard to have a regular conversation with a girl. What is so hard in being real? Why do they feel the need to make up these stupid lines in their head? Why can they not let conversations come naturally? Just be you and if that girl is not interested move on to the next one that likes you for you not your money or the cars you drive. Girls like a guy who is confident enough to be himself besides, that's the only way meaningful conversations can be had.

Also, why is that many of the naija guys that approach you cannot speak English properly? "Eye love you".... Come on naija boys I know you guys can do better. I have faith in you guys. By the way, thumbs up to those of you that have kept it real all this time and are still doing that. Yes am back and this time to stay please hold me to my words. By the way, remember you are not ALONE so hang in there.

Love always,
Daddy's little girl (Mbang)xoxo

Couldn't quite think of a title......

Why is it that:
Most times you do not realize how much something means to you until it is about to be taken away
Most times you do not know how great your day is going to be until you are right in the middle of it..
Most times you do not realize how strong you are until you are able to face the difficulties in your life and overcome them.
Too many times we give ourselves less credit than we deserve.
Too many times we think that we cannot make it through our issues but the truth is that we can make our way back from anything. Sometimes all it takes is for us to believe in ourselves and surround ourselves with good people that can be there to encourage us during tough times. We need to be able to hang on and try and believe that we can always start afresh no matter how bad things get or how we screw up. Life is not always going to suck yes it is going to have its down times but its also going to have its good times. We just have to learn to fight through the pain because the moment we stop fighting we stop living.. So guys please hang in there and remember you are not alone...

Love always,
Daddy's little girl....Mbang…xoxo

Now for real my slacking days are truly over!!!

So i've been seriously MIA for about a year now and that seriously sucks because i've missed you all plus i have alot has changed since then... I would like to give the excuse that things have been really crazy and busy and even though to say the least they have, i know that i should have made out time to blog... So am here apologizing for slacking because i do not want you to think i do not care because i truly do... This blog is one of the things that really matters to me so am back again and this time i am here to stay... Yep i am not going nowhere..

Love always,

Daddy's little girl (mbang).......xoxo

We are blessed but do not even realize it !!!!

I know there are days that we think we have it bad or are going through alot but we forget that there is someone out there going through worse. I have been working at school over the summer for a month now. My job entails me to sit at a desk at all times and i am not supposed to leave it until my shift is over. Although, today i broke that rule because of this blind lady who was struggling very hard to get into the building. I could not just sit there i had to get up and direct her to the laundry room where her clothes were. She was so pleasant and beautiful. She was very grateful and she asked me for my name and where i was from. Apparently, her best friend is also Nigerian and is from Lagos... I couldn't help asking her for her name and her number and after she left she got me thinking for a while if not for the whole time.....


How could such a wonderful person be blind? Why am i not blind? These are questions that God alone can answer but i know that so many of us are blessed but we do not even realize it...We always remember what is wrong and forget the good things in our lives.. Our minds are so occupied with what we do not have that we forget the many things that God has done for us. I have been having a pretty long week so somehow i believe that God wanted me to meet this wonderful person so every time i start feeling down i can remember that i am really blessed....
Love always,
Daddy's Little Girl....xoxo

My slacking days are over!! I think...

I know I have not blogged for over 2 months and as much as I would like to say I was very busy somehow I know I could have made time for it if I wanted to. Don't get me wrong you guys matter to me a great deal but I guess I had some serious sorting out to do. I am sorry it's taken me this long to update my blog but now things are going to be different because I am on vacation and although I have a job with lots of hours I am jobless So you are going to be seeing more of me now than ever before.

Love always,
Daddy's little girl....xoxo

Depression likes company

A lot has been going on with me of recent of which none has been good. Due to everything I have been quite depressed. There were days I barely made it through without wanting to break down and cry. After days of holding the tears back I finally let it all up down to my friend Ada. I think that was like the most awkward conversation we’ve had ever.

I just cried for about 20 minutes and then I told her I had to go. No explanations or reasons or grumbling apart from saying "Ada I’m really tired, I do not know how long I can continue to do this for". My really close friend called me later and could sense something was wrong. I am a very talkative person so the moment I am a little quiet you know I’m either tired (which rarely ever happens) or I have a lot on my mind. I didn't tell him what was up with me but I acknowledged the fact that I wasn't myself. Funny enough, our conversation was anything but weird. I ended up going to bed happy.

The next day I started reflecting on my life and I realized that we as humans choose to be depressed. Yes things get really bad sometimes but nothing can ruin our mood unless we allow it to. I had promised myself not to allow all the stuffs going on in my life bother me but somewhere along the line I had forgotten. There is no harm in crying once in a while but the moment it becomes frequent then there is a problem. Many times after I have finished crying I find myself the happiest because I feel like the weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

Nothing can get to you unless you allow it. There are going to be days that you will feel like crap, that you will wonder why your alive or you would just want to loose hope but if I was able to make it through days like that you also can. Remember depression likes company and that’s a company you don't want to keep.

Love always,
Daddy's little girl...xoxo

Just words but so much more!!!

First of all, I am really sorry I have not blogged for over a week. Sometimes, school gets so crazy that I almost forget to do things that really matter to me. I hope your weekend was better than mine? It is not like mine sucked but nothing exciting happened like that if you feel me. I remember the day I got this jewelry box because it totally brightened up my day. It was that day I found out that my 2nd and final monthly installment plan for my school fees was due in two weeks rather than in two months. I had just finished paying the 1st installment only a week ago so I knew this was going to be a rather impossible task for my mom. I was really upset and worried about my mom because my school fees had doubled because I changed school I lost my scholarship. I was literally trying to fight the tears from pouring down so I decided that if I took a long nap it would go away just for the moment. As I walked into my building, I could see a green slip in my mailbox, which usually indicated I had a package. I was contemplating whether to pick it up now or later but I finally decided to get it. When I got to my room, I opened the package and saw this jewelry box. I do not know whether it was the fact that is customized for me or the words or from who it came from but, this jewelry box kept me going and believing that everything will be alright. The fact that someone believed in me and cared was enough reason for me to keep believing in myself. Many times, people do not realize how much their words can give you hope. There have been many days that I have struggled but was able to survive and keep going because of someone's words. One day try telling your friends what you really like about them and you will find that in some weird way it would bring you joy to know that you just put a smile on someone's face. I know this is going to sound rather strange but, there some days when I get on facebook and read people's status and I notice their status is saying something about them been down, I immediately find myself sending them a message of encouragement so that they know that someone cares and they are not alone. It is really funny how far someone's encouragement and support can go even if it is just words. The funny part is that I do not think he ever knew how much that jewelry box touched my life even if it was for that moment or that day. I want to say a big thank you for giving me the courage to keep believing even when there was nothing to believe in. I also, want to thank everyone that has given me hope in one way or the other I hope that I can one day do the same for you one of these days. T he coolest thing about my jewelry box is that it has Mbang (which is the name that my mom and I share) written on it. People do not know it is the little things that count but I am glad that I know and somehow I am going to always try and make it count...xoxo
Daddy's little girl (Mbang) Lol.