I I am super excited to be writing my first journal. I have wanted to do this for a long time but I was not able to gather the motivation until now. I have always been that person that has wanted to give someone hope even if it is just through a few kind words. The reason I decided to create a blog was so that someone out there can know that there is still hope for a bright future. Also, so that someone out there can know that they are not the only one who is struggling. Who is feeling defeated, abandoned or barely surviving. If only they can find the strength and courage to hold on for a little while, everything will be all right. The 22nd was my friend Tomi Lee's birthday and because of how wonderful she has been, a couple of us decided to have a surprise party for her. We wanted it to be really special so we cooked some Nigerian food and invited her friends. It turned out to be great but the best part was when she came in, her face was priceless. It reminded me that making other people happy was what made me happy and I knew that I had to create my blog. Also, yesterday was a pretty rough day for me. Besides the fact that I had three exams, it was also my late father's birthday and as much as I tried to be okay I found myself down. I found myself thinking a lot about how he died, how much I miss him and how different things would be if he were alive. I know I cannot forget it especially since I witnessed his death but when I remember him, I want it to be memories of love and joy. I know it is going to take time but it is my past and that is where I want to leave it. I want to grow from this experience. I want to become a stronger person from this experience and not break from it. Everything happens for a reason even if I do not understand why some things should happen now maybe one day I will. I know I am going to always miss my daddy but with such an amazing mum it is going to be hard.lol..I have been trying to understand why I have been the calmest and happiest that I have been for as long as I can remember especially now that it has been the hardest for me. After a lot of thinking, I was able to realize that it is because of the people in my life. God has truly blessed me with a wonderful family and friends I cannot be more grateful. Sometimes when I get frustrated and start feeling like there is no point in trying, my family and friends make life worth living. I do not find it necessary mentioning names but I want you all to know I love you so much and I am going to try my best to always be here for you. Whenever I feel I cannot make it anymore something makes me realize that everything is going to be alright. So there is still hope, things will not always be this way. And remember you are not alone......xoxo
Daddy's little girl.
